H-E-L-L-O Hello! Haha. Today was quite okay actually , actually felt kinda sianed cause have VAS class and ONOW ( whereby my project is not even established and it's just pure epic sianess to face the music...lalala~.

Had lunch with the girls at foodcourt 3. Then when queing up to buy food , Valerie says i am flirting with the auntie... i was like WTF!!! -.- Cuz i cannot hear wad the auntie said , so i kinda spaced out.. then Valalalalala say i acting cute to the auntie! LOL!!zzz Okay anyways , during the 3 hour break , didnt bring my BDC workbook to do in that free time , so watched "Absolute Boyfriend" with Charmaine using the lappy. The show is dam cute but yet a little sad..At first is i watch de , then Charmaine came , then she watch with me , then got addicted. HAHA! ;p

VAS was okay. Surprisingly , after a brief , we were dismissed! O_O
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To buy materials for the next project.....(-.-) Nah the school's not so kind to let us off for nothing. So went with the girls to art friend cuz Claudia wanted to buy the Lino cut , aka NILON CARD ( by Miss Claudia). LOL!! Supposed to make our very own print. Of our own portrait. After printing , then gotta carve out the white parts of the print. This is something we did.





Haha yup that's all. Tatata~

Vin

Hello people (: Just came back from the Cathedral Of the Good Sheperd. Mass is awesome. Jesus is awesome! :DD The choir there is really good! Their voices are really strong and it they are so good that they remind me of angels praising God.Thank God for them , and I'm really happy that they put their talent to good use. Some people in this world have the most gifted abilities , but yet they use them for the wrong reasons.

Anyway after the mass , Father Paul made an announcement to us catechumens.Our baptism date is set on 16th August. When i first heard that , it suddenly struck deep into my being. 16th August..... that was the day when i got pneumothorax (lung collaspe) , the day when i fell. That was the incident which made me experience God the strongest in my whole life. It was the time when i was totally helpless , and when i could not depend on my own strength anymore ; God picked me up. It was this time when i truly felt the love of God for me and turning point for me in my life.

And it is on the same date , 16 August , that i am going to be baptised. I will be the day when i start life anew , living in the Lord Jesus Christ , and with the Lord living in me. Like a baby i will be born again , fresh from baptism. I find it hard to believe.. could this be a mere coincidence? the baptism was supposed to be during sept or towards end of the year , but it was suddenly brought forward. To 16th of August. Faith tells me it cannot be just a coincidence.. This perfect mystery of God left me in awe and dumbfounded. The day when i fell , will be the day when i am picked up by God. It is as if a message from God , gently reminding me that he will pick me up no matter what , even if i fall.

And i really like to share this with you readers... because it is just too amazing. I can't describe it with words. The events happening in my life , and even the recent ones when i am sooo confused within , trying to seek assurance and answers...God gave me one today. The answer that only i know. Praise God!

Vin

Decision? A sacrifice.

It all came down to this. After many sleepless days , it is all finally taking a toll on my body. Weak as it is after 3 freakin operations ; despite the fact that i am training like mad to get my physique back , work and stress just have to push me down to zero. Or perhaps negative. After those nights , i had a flu (not H1N1.. ZZZ), kept sneezing and all. It was horrible. All just to complete my work. Now my lung is feeling weird after all these shits. And i have to go on again after the hols, which is not hols to me since the shitty school made us do assignments ; like after a few weeks of serious hell and we still can't get a decent 100% no homework shit break.

Not only this , but more importantly ( yes even more important than my health) my spiritual life is at jeopardy. Ever since the school started , i seemed to have drifted away from God. I am a person who needs help with prayer life already , and this stressful @%#@^@^ life made it even worse. I am lagging far behind in my RCIA class now , with lots of reflection not done. I've let a lot of people there down.
I feel bad too , not being able to sacrifice time for God ( since every second counts , even if i work 24 hours straight i may not get the job done well ).

And i soon find myself crumbling away.. I felt so demoralised with no one to console me. In school, life's tough. Everyone may seem to care , but the actual fact is that everyone's for themselves. I've lived through enough of this shit to actually pen this down. In the instance when you desperately needed help , you are turned down. And this hurts much more than you'd expect.

I've decided. I'm not gonna give so much a crap about my school stuff already. People can go fight and kill themselves to score the best , but God will always be first in my life. I will make a sacrifice for God , and it is only right so. Jesus died on the cross for us ; the ultimate sacrifice and act of love. So i am not gonna let some mortal bullshit ruin my relationship with God. No way.

Vin

Good mornin peeps. It's 4 am now , and i'm supposed to be working on my 100 photos stuff. Oh well , since the disc is formatting now i might as well blog to relieve some stress. TERM BREAK IS COMING IN 2 DAYS TIME!! WOOOHOOO~ Can't wait man. I am seriously gonna jump and do crazy stunts at the end of that day.

Gonna post some of my 100 lousy photos here.. including one "zi pai" one. LOL. Honestly i am not into all these zi pai thingy. But for the sake of venturing deep into photography , i started to snap weird things. ( Dun worry , no obscene stuffs included ;p)








Vin

Stand In The Rain

She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down.

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain


This song sounds so familiar to my heart..

Vin

What if one day you woke up from your slumber , discovered that you are still alive , and could not move at all? You find that the pain still lingers in your chest , and every breath is a struggle. But nothing beats the pain of losing her , the one you love. You wished you were dead , but yet somehow you are only half dead.

The cold air only amplified your pain even further. You just can't forget what had happened , you can't explain it. It is hard to believe , after these years.. what you've always held on to was taken away in an instance. You struggled to live , trying to forget this past. But the scars remain , you see them everyday. You feel different. Every breath you take now is different from before ; it just seems so thin now. You can never feel the same air again.

You continued to move on , only to find youself in a totally different world from before. Hungry wolves surround you. You are the only wolf with a different colour. They looked like they could gang up on you and rip you off anytime. With the pain instilled within you , you turned defensive. You are ready to fight back anytime , even if you must die doing so ; you should be dead in the first place.

You then stray from the pack.. growing weary. The scars are still there to haunt you. The purpose is lost , you stray away. Wandering in the fog , wondering where you could go to next...you want a home , a home that will accept you , a home that will not ignore you , a home that loves you for who you are. And I've found the home. The Lord's abode.

Vin