Yo...Dammit. Shitty things keep happening to me. For some reason , when i tried to
feel happy or motivated , the next day will always get me. So many things are really hurtin me badly..and they keep flooding in.. I am drowning under all these... Can something make me happy? For once? At LEAST???

Ppl keep saying i sound emo , look emo...wadever. But no one will understand how much i am going through.. No one , except God..I tried countless times to stand up after every fall , putting on a smile , just to hide my feelings..It's so stupid. Why
am i trying so hard , when eventually , everything goes down the drain?

Maybe i should be apathetic , so that i would not hurt so much.Maybe i should care less.. Why do i always have so much freaking hope when it is gonna hurt so much more? I always belived , that MAYBE something good will turn out in the end..guess i am just too naive , too stupid..