Wow. Lots of dust here. Did not post for quite sometime already.. hmm. Holidays are..
lets see... Holidays could either be a curse or a blessing. Too bad I am sorta stuck in between. School is hell, holidays are like prison days. Perhaps there is nothing
for me to look forward to. Now, I look forward only to gatherings with my clique, and going to Amplify fridays. I seem to be missing something.. or rather that feeling of excitement. The excitement of meeting new people, the excitement of making new friends.. Maybe I am too old for this. I feel like I am.

Sorry for the crap. Am so bored till i typed without thinking.. Ah well. I kinda missed that feeling back then.. Those what you call "warmth" i received back when
I was in the hospital, I treasured it. And I pretty much know I'll never get them back.

Gahh spammed loads of crap today. Probably due to the lack of good sleep... probably..

Vin

Helloooo. Went to gym today at sengkang with clique. Did some intense training ( for me cuz it is intense when you dont have enuff sleep before hand -.-) Today focused on training biceps and deltoids , and abit of abs. Was thinking of training pecs but i abit scared cuz of my last time operation ~_~ so didnt train tt part.

then went back home and sleep. ji tao toh on bed. Just woke up and i can feel the soreness of my muscles already. After effect of not training for so long... Haiz. I'm still weak physically. never mind , gonna train and rest up my body in this upcoming hols. To be useful i need to be strong first. not gonna touch the legs because it is already strong as it is ; my upper body needs that training.

Ok , that's about it. Hmm thursday gonna have Masquarade party in school for School of Design ~_~. Sian.

Vin

Yoz. Been quite awhile since i last posted. Was really really busy. Rushing projects and all. Sept 5!!!! Gotta hang on till then. Hmm for now...I am really extremely tired to the max. Body's really being pushed to the limits. Anyway was just randomly watching some vids just now and i came across this. This vid is super cute , and RX brings back childhood memories. Enjoy~

Hello.. was sick these few days. Had cough and flu. Was quite bad so went to see a doc and got 4 days mc. Haiz , i think i am gonna get left behind alrdy. everyone have alrdy done their work and while the sch is rushing like no freaking business , i am struggling with health and work. Urgh. My back is aching also.. dunno why , maybe cuz my sleeping pose wrong T~T
Oh yah the above image was photoshopped with some effect i cant rmb while i explored PS today.. I really need to hone my photoshop skills sia. If not really cnt catch up le.

Haa anyway baptism day is nearing! i am uber excited xDDD

Vin

Note to myself. Homework left:
1) VAS silkscreen prints by friday
2) FDS model mock up do during the weekend
3) HTi Journal research
4) GC personal profile

Very tired these days.. Schoolwork keeps piling as i struggle to meet everyday. Felt like i could collaspe anytime now , with the extreme lack of sleep. but i shall not complain , cuz my family relies on me. that's the responsibility of an only child i guess. hah , praise God for blessing me with the strength to hold on. Gotta work hard , no matter how tired i may be. Every effort is worthwhile. Melvin jia you!! xD

Vin

This video is uber epic. Like the way they pair up the characters. Especially Vincent x Tifa and Notcis x Stella part. Wish I could have the same or even better skills one day.

2 cuties <3

Heeellloooo. Gonna post about 2 cute little kitties I've found while doing my service learning project.

After doing our service learning at Acres for about 1 and a half hours , my group decided to take a short break. We went to the nursery opposite of Acres and explored around. It was overall a nice and peaceful place , and no one was in there. We spotted one grey cat lying on the table , so Aminah and Raihannah went to disturb him. Haha , bet the kitty felt disturbed.

After that a lady came in , i bet she is the owner of the nursery. She spoke to us in a friendly tone ; and seeing us play with the cat , she told us that there are 2 more kittens at the other side of the nursery. SWEET. So we followed her and we saw 2 litle kittens lying around randomly near some plants. They were soooooo cute and small. There was a white one and a black one.


The white one is called Gigi. Haha she's a noisy little fella , like a little white tiger. keep mewing away. The black one's called Gugu. He's the silent type. Never heard him mewed once. Gigi on the other hand is so randomly naughty. HAHA cuz she keep making noise and move here and there. ( Guess she's hungry )

Gonna post pictures of them :D




Hahaha yup. And see , my freaking hair is sooooooo long AND I DONT HAVE TIME TO CUUUUTTTT ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.




Vin

H-E-L-L-O Hello! Haha. Today was quite okay actually , actually felt kinda sianed cause have VAS class and ONOW ( whereby my project is not even established and it's just pure epic sianess to face the music...lalala~.

Had lunch with the girls at foodcourt 3. Then when queing up to buy food , Valerie says i am flirting with the auntie... i was like WTF!!! -.- Cuz i cannot hear wad the auntie said , so i kinda spaced out.. then Valalalalala say i acting cute to the auntie! LOL!!zzz Okay anyways , during the 3 hour break , didnt bring my BDC workbook to do in that free time , so watched "Absolute Boyfriend" with Charmaine using the lappy. The show is dam cute but yet a little sad..At first is i watch de , then Charmaine came , then she watch with me , then got addicted. HAHA! ;p

VAS was okay. Surprisingly , after a brief , we were dismissed! O_O
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To buy materials for the next project.....(-.-) Nah the school's not so kind to let us off for nothing. So went with the girls to art friend cuz Claudia wanted to buy the Lino cut , aka NILON CARD ( by Miss Claudia). LOL!! Supposed to make our very own print. Of our own portrait. After printing , then gotta carve out the white parts of the print. This is something we did.





Haha yup that's all. Tatata~

Vin

Hello people (: Just came back from the Cathedral Of the Good Sheperd. Mass is awesome. Jesus is awesome! :DD The choir there is really good! Their voices are really strong and it they are so good that they remind me of angels praising God.Thank God for them , and I'm really happy that they put their talent to good use. Some people in this world have the most gifted abilities , but yet they use them for the wrong reasons.

Anyway after the mass , Father Paul made an announcement to us catechumens.Our baptism date is set on 16th August. When i first heard that , it suddenly struck deep into my being. 16th August..... that was the day when i got pneumothorax (lung collaspe) , the day when i fell. That was the incident which made me experience God the strongest in my whole life. It was the time when i was totally helpless , and when i could not depend on my own strength anymore ; God picked me up. It was this time when i truly felt the love of God for me and turning point for me in my life.

And it is on the same date , 16 August , that i am going to be baptised. I will be the day when i start life anew , living in the Lord Jesus Christ , and with the Lord living in me. Like a baby i will be born again , fresh from baptism. I find it hard to believe.. could this be a mere coincidence? the baptism was supposed to be during sept or towards end of the year , but it was suddenly brought forward. To 16th of August. Faith tells me it cannot be just a coincidence.. This perfect mystery of God left me in awe and dumbfounded. The day when i fell , will be the day when i am picked up by God. It is as if a message from God , gently reminding me that he will pick me up no matter what , even if i fall.

And i really like to share this with you readers... because it is just too amazing. I can't describe it with words. The events happening in my life , and even the recent ones when i am sooo confused within , trying to seek assurance and answers...God gave me one today. The answer that only i know. Praise God!

Vin

Decision? A sacrifice.

It all came down to this. After many sleepless days , it is all finally taking a toll on my body. Weak as it is after 3 freakin operations ; despite the fact that i am training like mad to get my physique back , work and stress just have to push me down to zero. Or perhaps negative. After those nights , i had a flu (not H1N1.. ZZZ), kept sneezing and all. It was horrible. All just to complete my work. Now my lung is feeling weird after all these shits. And i have to go on again after the hols, which is not hols to me since the shitty school made us do assignments ; like after a few weeks of serious hell and we still can't get a decent 100% no homework shit break.

Not only this , but more importantly ( yes even more important than my health) my spiritual life is at jeopardy. Ever since the school started , i seemed to have drifted away from God. I am a person who needs help with prayer life already , and this stressful @%#@^@^ life made it even worse. I am lagging far behind in my RCIA class now , with lots of reflection not done. I've let a lot of people there down.
I feel bad too , not being able to sacrifice time for God ( since every second counts , even if i work 24 hours straight i may not get the job done well ).

And i soon find myself crumbling away.. I felt so demoralised with no one to console me. In school, life's tough. Everyone may seem to care , but the actual fact is that everyone's for themselves. I've lived through enough of this shit to actually pen this down. In the instance when you desperately needed help , you are turned down. And this hurts much more than you'd expect.

I've decided. I'm not gonna give so much a crap about my school stuff already. People can go fight and kill themselves to score the best , but God will always be first in my life. I will make a sacrifice for God , and it is only right so. Jesus died on the cross for us ; the ultimate sacrifice and act of love. So i am not gonna let some mortal bullshit ruin my relationship with God. No way.

Vin

Good mornin peeps. It's 4 am now , and i'm supposed to be working on my 100 photos stuff. Oh well , since the disc is formatting now i might as well blog to relieve some stress. TERM BREAK IS COMING IN 2 DAYS TIME!! WOOOHOOO~ Can't wait man. I am seriously gonna jump and do crazy stunts at the end of that day.

Gonna post some of my 100 lousy photos here.. including one "zi pai" one. LOL. Honestly i am not into all these zi pai thingy. But for the sake of venturing deep into photography , i started to snap weird things. ( Dun worry , no obscene stuffs included ;p)








Vin

Stand In The Rain

She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down.

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain


This song sounds so familiar to my heart..

Vin

What if one day you woke up from your slumber , discovered that you are still alive , and could not move at all? You find that the pain still lingers in your chest , and every breath is a struggle. But nothing beats the pain of losing her , the one you love. You wished you were dead , but yet somehow you are only half dead.

The cold air only amplified your pain even further. You just can't forget what had happened , you can't explain it. It is hard to believe , after these years.. what you've always held on to was taken away in an instance. You struggled to live , trying to forget this past. But the scars remain , you see them everyday. You feel different. Every breath you take now is different from before ; it just seems so thin now. You can never feel the same air again.

You continued to move on , only to find youself in a totally different world from before. Hungry wolves surround you. You are the only wolf with a different colour. They looked like they could gang up on you and rip you off anytime. With the pain instilled within you , you turned defensive. You are ready to fight back anytime , even if you must die doing so ; you should be dead in the first place.

You then stray from the pack.. growing weary. The scars are still there to haunt you. The purpose is lost , you stray away. Wandering in the fog , wondering where you could go to next...you want a home , a home that will accept you , a home that will not ignore you , a home that loves you for who you are. And I've found the home. The Lord's abode.

Vin

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Death
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Got this from Galv's blog. Quite accurate i guess , but sometimes , i just feel like being alone. Must have gotten used to it already. =/

Vin

Helloooooo. I am in school now , blogging here since class is still 30 mins away. Hmm
life in poly suc-- wait i mean life in school of design sucks. It's ironic how we can get good inspirations and make well-thought out design when they are making our schedule even tighter than JC ( or around the same..)This is such a joke. I couldn't even take it seriously anymore.

Oh well , on a brighter note , term break is coming!! xD But not before this bloody hectic week. Damn. Was randomly looking through the pics in my lappy , and i found some crazy webcam photos that i took with my classmates in studio. Some of them make me look so unglam..but not posting here hehe. :)

Ps: I LOL-ed at Val's face. No offense!;p HAHA

Hello , gosh nowadays i really have no time to blog at all. Thanks to sch of design.. keep spamming assignments sia. Haven even week 2 alrdy got 9 assignments and 1 major project (Brickboy..). I was like wtf man , i thought poly life is supposed to be dam slack , but to my horror , i am working my ass off! It's lke superhuman training programme. No joke. I even experienced not sleeping for more than 24 hours. Yes , 24 hours all right.From evening to night to morning , then go sch , then go dinner and movies , then went home to slp.

Stupid project la , make me paint for one whole night , next day become zombie liao. And the Visual Art Studio worse sia , have to paint 154 squares with different colours , and they only lke provide us with 3 primary colours and black and whie. The rest we are supposed to mix by ourselves! WTFFF!! Argh. Sucks man.

Their deadlines are all so close somemore... zzzz i am afraid this weaker-than-average-human body could not sustain for much longer if this continues...Before i can even become a superhuman i wud have become a zombie first -.-

Anways , fortunately i have awesome classmates :D Here are some crazy photos i took with them in class.

Okays that's about it. Will post again if i have the time. IF i had the time. (:
Ciao ,


Vin

Woohoo One Piece opening 11 is out. One of the most epic opening I've seen. Haha the song is "Share the world" by Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK). Enjoy!


Vin

Heeellllooo~ It's been some years since i posted. I felt it was that long a time ~_~ Hahaha i just can't find anything to post about... Haiz holiday life jiu shi zhe yang. I AM BOREDDDDDD!!! Can't wait for poly to start sia.. Wonder what types of classmate will i meet. Hmm...

On the other hand , RCIA is going well , and i've learnt a lot of things there (: Oh yah i was surprised the worship team asked me to join them and sing with them sia. Cuz i told them i was once from choir , then Claris the leader went to audition me. LOL. Nostalgic feeling. It's been quite awhile since i sang.. Since the Lord has given me this chance to praise and worship him , i am willing to pick it up again :D

Yups so that's about it..oh btw this song is nice, enjoy ;)


Be Yourself

Someone falls to pieces
Sleepin all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
To finally drift away

Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
Catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
Someone finds salvation in everyone
And another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside himself he prays
Someone swears his true love
Untill the end of time
Another runs away

Separate or united?
Healthy or insane?
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
And even when you've paid enough, been pulled apart or been held up
With every single memory of the good or bad faces of luckdon't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright

You may win or lose

But to be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do

You have changed
I have changed
Just like you
Just like you

For how long
For how long
Must I wait
I know there's something wrong
Your concrete heart isn't beating
And I've tried to
Make it come alive

No shadows
Just red lights
Now I'm here to rescue you

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
I can't apologise no
Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
I can't apologise no

So silent
No violence
But inside my head
So loud and clear
You're screaming
You're screaming
Cover up with a smile
I've learned to fear

Just sunshine
And blue sky
This is all again
For living here
Come fire
Come fire
Let it burn and love come racing through

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
I can't apologise no
Oh I'm still aliveI'm still alive
I can't apologise no

Learn to lose
Learn to win
Turn my face against the wind
I will move fast
I will move slow
Take me where I have to go

Hellooo... Hmm these few days i am having some weird dreams. Dreams means nothing , i know. But the dream almost happen every night for me since a few days ago ~_~... Ahhhh.. The dream is quite embarrassing also... Geeeezzz okay i guess i'll just post it out.

Everytime in my dream , i would be inside this world ( and the sky is freaking dark again ; day or night -.- ). I would be inside this huge cruise ship with a VERY weird structure. Instead of looking sleek and cool , it looks more like a olden - time town on water ~_~ But the good thing is there is a shopping mall. LOOL! Okay talking about shopping mall , my dream/nightmare begins... I am tagged with this girl , ( some girl with an attitude , always scolding and smacking me for dunno wad reasons, but sometimes good to me..) I dunno her name , and i dun really remember her looks ... But i just remember something. I am a navy trainee along with her ( -.- ) and we are together in the navy academy on board the ship.

So in the dream i brought her around the ship to play and stuff, look at carnivals , went to arcades (WTF!!!!) so i became sort of "attached" to her. And for freaking 3 days my dreams almost follow the similar outline -.- The last thing i rmb is when i was about to woke up , i got promoted to be a navy officer and got separated with her and i woke up...

Yeah , that's about it. Geeeeeeeez dun tell me i fell in love with someone from my dream?! ARGH this is ridiculous......... Okay bye bye

Vin

If we met in a dream...

I thought I have learnt to forget,
but the dream brought everything back,
Those eyes , those smiles , that makes all pain worthwhile...
Real yet abstract , happy yet sad
For only in a dream shall it last,
I can never see that face again.
Woke up with tears , speechless and numb
This parting hurts even more , than what is
not done.
How I wish it is real..
When I hear you say "I love you "...
Till then , let's meet in our dreams again...

Vin

My Vision

Hello , I'd like to talk about my vision.The vision that i saw during the last YISS (Youth In The Spirits Seminar). It was during the night of the outpouring of the Holy Spirit , when i spoke in tongues for the very first time , and after that i saw this one vision.

This is what i saw : I saw a portrait. In the background , it is the ocean , with a few mountains.On the foreground , it is a jungle-like place , with a frame made by leaves , exposing the ocean in the back ground.In the middle of this foreground , surrounded by the frame of leaves , is a single stalk of flower. It's petals are closed up , with a flame inside it's core. Petals are dropping down from the flower.

Then , i prayed to God laterwards , as i tried to figure out the meaning of this vision.After a few weeks , i think God have answered me through Nicholas. Haha. One day he sent me this song: "Who I Am" , by Casting Crowns. Before that , i was feeling quite moody , dunno why but i felt directionless.I still have faith , but it was just a low season of my life whereby i need some assurance. I always felt confused. Am i really accepted to join the Lord's family? I am non-baptised. Will people reject me? I felt insecured , almost from young till now. Then i listened to this song..

The lyrics are as followed :

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

So after listening to this song , I thought to myself. Is this a coincidence? I don't think so , because i believe in God. (: Praise the Lord!

Vin

Cats are just too cute. Random.

Vin

Hey , it's been awhile since i last posted. Gahhh due to some irritating fever , i am forced to stay on bed like for dunno how long. And my valentine's day is gone just like that. But oh well , maybe that's better , cause i have no idea how to spend it anyways. I am reeeaaaallllllyy borred right now. Well , not that i don't wanna find a job , but reality is , it is hard to find one in this times.. and i dun wanna do those jobs that cannot serve people directly. ( Read: Admin )

Hopefully Amplify will contact me about my serving post. Then i'll really have something to work hard on in the meantime. Hahaha.And finally , it begins. My RCIA is gonna commence this wed , which is tml night. Yays!! Time to learn more about my faith , and become a true Christian.Hmm that's all for now , tata~

Vin

Forget it. My past ruins everything.. it's not me anyway.

Our Two Hands...

I was having my quiet time one day , thinking about my servant-life.In what ways can i serve people? Then i look at my both hands. I stared at them for quite awhile , thinking about it. Ding dong! Suddenly a thought came into my mind. This phrase came into my head : " One hand to carry my own cross , the other to bear the weight of others' crosses "

God made us with two hands , but not one. Why? It is simply because , we do not live for ourselves. The phrase really made quite an impact on me . Both of our hands ; which many has taken for granted , is there for a reason. Logically speaking , even with one hand , we can still do many things, more than enough to keep us survive. With the will , people with one hand can still cook , drive , and work. But why two? Isn't one enough then?

This is what i think. My reflection : God works in many mysterious ways. His wonders , His miracles , they all work in ways we find it hard to comprehend. Have you ever heard of this story?

One day , a man was about to drown in the ocean. He have great faith in God, and he prayed and asked God to reach out to him and save him. The man was hanging on to a log , and nothing else.His survival depends on that log( as a float).
Soon , a speedboat came. The driver shouted to him : "Hey are you okay? Let me bring you to the shore!" The faithful man replied , " No! God will save me! I know he will! Leave me alone" And so the driver left the man alone in the ocean , and went off.
Next , a boat came along. The fisherman aboard the boat offered to help him also , but the man rejected his help.
Finally , a helicopter. Yes , a helicopter , flew by and spotted the drowning man. The pilot let down the ladder , and asked the man to reach out to it. The man rejected the offer once again , waiting for God to save him. The man eventually drowned , and died. His soul then went to Heaven , where he met God. He asked God : "Oh Almighty God , why did you not hear me? I called out to you , but where were you??" God sighed and replied him : "My child , I heard you loud and clear. I tried to save you so many times , but you rejected My offer. First , I sent you a speedboat , then another boat , and even a helicopter! But you rejected them all! "(The End.)

This story teaches us that God IS with us. He is not from above , watching us and then decides to come down and help us. He is everywhere. God uses us to do His will. More specifically , our hands ; the two hands God has made us with. With one hand , we can be guaranteed survival. But then this other hand you have there is not "extra" . It is meant for you to help others , to serve others. It is for you to reach out to weak and needy people with that hand. If you can imagine the weak and needy people as people with only one hand ( only barely surviving the harsh world) , then use your other hand to reach out to them!

After all , two hands are needed to clap. When two hands clap , there is contact. Our hands ; beside being used to do God's will , it is also to provide that contact to others , to touch them (not in a bad way of course -.-), such that they will feel that God is so much alive! , not in a faraway Heaven , but so close to them! They see God in our very actions , actions produced by our hands. These hands that provide , that reaches out to others and to protect others.

Of course , if you allow the Devil to control you , your hands wont do any good. ( DUH) Fighting , killing , molesting... you name it. All these causes destruction and sadness , definitely not something God would provide , but we have this happy-yet-sad thing called "Choice". I strongly urge you all to not subject your hands to the path of destruction , because God did not make us for that. God gave us hands to Construct not destroy. It is like a test with a life-time duration ; whether you use your hands to do God's will , or use your hands to hurt others.

So the bottomline is this : Our hands are there to carry out God's will. God uses us , His favorite creation (humans duh -.- ) as a vessel to carry out His love , care and protection. As long as you have two hands (or more...) , you are obliged to help those who are in need. To end off , i would like to say this prayer , taught to me during the last Amplify Fridays session.

"Dear Lord Jesus , here i am. Let my words not be my words , but yours. Let my actions not be my actions , but yours. Lord , use me as you will. Amen. "

Vin

Hey yoz ppl!!!!!!!! Weeeee~ Today is indeed a happy day , and a day filled with God's miracles and joy! Today , 12/1/09 , Monday is the 2008 GCE 'O' Levels result release date. Many are anxious to know what they get for their results , how well they have fared. Some are apathetic about it , not even bothered by it.For me and Nick , it is a day of revelation , not of the results but rather , what path God has set for us. The revelation of God's answer to our prayers , the revelation of God's miracles.

In the afternoon , at around 12.30pm , me and Nick went to pray at the CSC's "Adoration Room", where the Holy sacrament of the Lord is there. We prayed with all our hearts for the O level results.I prayed to the Lord that whatever He gave us , there is a purpose in it , and I am willing to accept anything He gives me. I prayed that the Lord will show His miracle on us , that even those considered as "no hope" cases people ;they will be amazed at how the Lord grants them flying colours in their results , and they shall bow down and worship Him. I also prayed that no matter what results we receive , we will still come back to CSC with a smile to praise and thank the Lord for what he have given us. (:

During the release of the 'O' level results , we were all very nervous , especially the waiting part. It is not the result , but rather the suspense that 'kills' us. But despite it all , i refuse to give in to fear. I put my hope in the Lord , and continued to hope till the end. When it was my turn , i was super nervous , but yet at the same time still holding on to the hope.

Mrs Jenny Ang then told me "Congratulations , Melvin " . Then Mrs Krishna who was holding on to my results was like " Oh no , Mrs Ang you revealed too fast! I didn't even have the chance to scare him..*laughs* " Then i took my results while time stopped at that very instance.

Maths. C6. Wut? LOL!! I actually got a C6 for my maths! I thought i was really gonna flung maths since i anyhow did it and since like sec 1 my maths is F9 case all the way! The miracle of the Lord , right before my very eyes... He broke my curse/chains of F9!! hahaha praise the Lord , Chainbreaker! Then i looked at my English result. Wut? A2!!! OMGOSH , i never seen it coming! The best i've estimated for my English was B3 , A2 was totally out of my calculations. Praise and thank the Lord indeed!

In total , my final L1R4 is 11 points , L1R5 is 17 points. Nick and Zong made it too!! Another miracle of the Lord , in front of my very eyes! The Lord has heard my prayers :D After that , we went back to CSC to praise and thank God for the results.

Moral of the day : Have Faith and Hope in the Lord. For no one who puts their Faith in the Lord will go disappointed. You may feel so at first , but in time to come you will thank the Lord for the road He have given you. So have faith my friends , even till the very end , dont give up. :D


Vin

A Nightmare that I was satisfied with...

Hmm...yesterday I had a nightmare as the title states, and this time it turned out uhh.. how do you put it... "Right". Well you guys know that when u dream you can't control your emotions and all right? Like even if there is someone you so wanna punch in your dreams but u just didn't. (LOL , jk )For me , i watched myself in this nightmare unleashing my faith for the Lord , Chirst Jesus.

You may wonder how am i gonna remember all the details of the dream right? Well i just woke up , and decided to blog it down while the details are still fresh. I hope this can inspire or encourage readers about our faith in the Lord. So this is how my nightmare went....

I received an SMS from Nick , asking me whether do i wanna watch a gundam movie or not. For some reason , the world in my nightmare is located in Singapore , but the sky is dark -.- It is as if almost ALL of my dreams or nightmares , the skies are either sanguine or dark.. Don't know what is going on man.. Okay anyway ,back to the nightmare. My handphone at that moment became very cool all of a sudden. I seemed to be choosing my wallpapers at that time , because all of them suddenly became so cool for me. ( -.- ) So i agreed with Nick and prepared to meet him.

I saw him and we boarded one bus together. Somehow he became super blur in my nightmare , losing direction and all. Then the bus became very crowded with people. For dunno what reason , Nick left the bus! I was like quite angry due to his immense blur-ness in my nightmare. So i continued to board the bus while i called him. He apologised and ask whether wanna change movie or not , since we will surely be late due to us separated. The movie he suggested next was space-horror film. And i really have no understanding why would i say yes to that. (Should have seen it coming that it is going to be a nightmare -.- )Therefore , we respectively went on our own ways to the movie.

Suddenly , i was shifted to a scene in a toilet -.- I was supposed to bathe before i go meet Nick again. Now this is the spooky part. The toilet is so darn quiet , and the lights are dim and sanguine ( once again...) Then i was showering inside with the mirror directly in front of my face. It was dam spooky and scary , sending chills down my spine , but i decided to do something ( which i would never have in other nightmares). I opened my mouth , had a leap of faith , and kept singing " Alleluia , praise the Lord!" very loudly , repeating over and over again. Then i shouted " Lord Jesus , by your power , i pray that you banish all evil in this place , let them bow down to You Messiah , Son of God!!" Suddenly i wasn't that scared anymore. In fact, i felt this power of faith , this flame in me , evoked by the Holy Spirit. I felt strong even in that lonely , dark place , totally naked and vulnerable. Because God is with us..and by waiting on the Lord , strength will rise! (:

So therefore dear readers , this is how powerful faith can be. Sometimes u feel it , sometimes you don't. But do not be discouraged , because faith is NOT a feeling nor emotion. It is a gift within you , sent by the Holy Spirit. So when you don't feel it , do not be sad, because it will definitely activate in times whne u least expected. Have faith , and keep it. Keep fighting against ourselves , till the Lord claim us. Amen!


Vin