8th day..

Yo. went to sch ytd to submit my chinese option form . Then met up with zong. We slacked at the space then saw so many wonderful painted benches. Haha dam nice man. Art class jiu shi art class. Hahaha. Hmm, then i began to experiment some manga drawing , while zong practiced his math . Then saw marcus and galvin , they also came to submit their option forms. After that went to kopitam to have lunch with them.

After lunch , me and zong decided to walk to compass point from hougang. hahah , yeah we WALKED. The weather is dam hot , but still decided to walk there , cause can exercise , plus we can free our minds while walking. Then we chatted , and decided to
have a short break at a kopitiam at seng kang before continuing. We grabbed a drink , and continued the journey.It feels so good to have a nice long stroll. The only irritating thing is the weather.

Then after that , we walked towards compass point along a pavement with open spaces across. We stopped halfway , and decided to sit down , cuz the scenery is dam calm , and the wind is dam shiok. Then we played music , and chatted. Then something made me extremely pissed off.

While we were sitting , a group of 3 boys , one about 17 - 20 years old while the others are still quite young , walked pass us. They were drinking bubble tea. Then dunno for what fucking reason, this boy shoot the pearl at me. Then i look at him , he somemore gave me a cheeky grin. Wtf sia , i really sibei dulan and was trying to control. Then the cb bangala teen say smth like "scared wad....stare stare stare.."
I almost snapped. Fortunately , i didnt. My values saved me in the nick of time (no pun intended , nick did not come with us =.=)

Then after that me and zong went to the library to cool down after the long walk. We discussed many interesting and personal stuff. We discussed about what will happen if i really went to beat that bangala up. I wouldnt want to imagine that , because when i go snap , i will seriously smash him , bash him , mash him and let him have it. I was worried about an overkill... what if i accidently killed him? And the consequences that comes after the fight. This made me hesitant , and moreover , my morals tell me to choose peace over violence. Unless zong kena beaten up , then i will beat that guy up to save my friend.

We also discussed about changing our personalitly. Being on the other side for so long, we didnt learn much about this world. Zong told me that , unlike me , he would like to get into trouble for once , into real life confrontation. Because he wanted to change , and fight his anxiety problems. Through the chat ,i came to know that he is somewhat like me. We are very introverted , and we want to change. Ususally when someone is being confronted by gang , they will be scared and stuff , but me and zong discussed about us dun give a heck to anything and just bash the other guy up. Maybe that feeling will change us. Not for the bad. I realise that fear is a must in someone's life , and it is not a shame to have it. Fear is the teacher of all things , it makes us think , and not do things foolishly. And when you overcome this fear , you get an incredible sense of satisfaction. This is what i wanted.There is so much to debate over morals vs. consequence. but IMO , morals are what that makes you alive , isnt it?

Conclusion : Getting into trouble is never a good thing.But for once in your lifetime , you need to get into one.Or else , you will never grow.That's how the world works , you dun search , you will never discover.

SoLO