Wahahahs! Merry Christmas HOHOHO x]

I wanna dedicate this post to my YISS group , SFA (St.Francis of Assisi)!! :DD
Wanna thank you guys for journeying and grow with me during this 4 short days of YISS Liberation.Though it may seem short , but we've gone through a lot emotionally , it's as though we've been through many thick and thins together. I wanna praise and thank God for letting me know you guys , and i will really treasure this friendship that i've forged through God's grace. :D Hope we can go to masses together , meet up at Amplify Fridays , and never forget this life changing experience we onced shared.Let us share our troubles and woes with one another , and pray for one another , as well as to remind one another of our mission! This i pray in Lord Jesus's name , Amen!!

Fun shot! :D


SFA rocks! x]]

Hey guys , it's just a few moments more to Christmas! I am sooo excited (: Even though i am down with fever , but this ain't gonna bring me down! Praise the Lord , and thank Him , for even when i am sick. I thank Him for blessing me with such an awesome mother , taking care of me while i am helpless. Lord , indeed i see you in my mum. (: And Lord , i surrender everything to you , my sickness , my problems. You take charge (((:

Meaning of Christmas. Christmas is the birth of our Saviour , Lord Jesus! It is the season of giving , to give whatever you have to people. To spread love , spread the Good News to everyone in this joyous occasion! You might be frustrated , thinking of what presents to get for your friends and relatives. But take a step back and think , are the gifts more important? Or is the love you have for the other person while giving whatever gifts you wanna give the main point? (:

Therefore friends , do not worry bout the presents , for it is the thoughts that counts. As long as you have the intention , the love for the other person , i am sure whatever the gift(s) you are giving will be extra special!

Here is the most important part of Christmas. What gift(s) is more significant than the Giver of gifts Himself? Christmas is the birth of our Saviour , birth of the Messiah!! God gave His precious Son , the Darling of Heaven to us! Rejoice!! :D

Christmas. Christmas = Christ + Mass. Without Christ , there will not be mass. So treasure this season of giving , enjoy the peace our Lord has blessed us with. Share the love with your families , friends and relatives! Love is one of the best gifts we humans could give (: May the birth of Christ our Saviour give us new life , Amen!!Praise the Lord , Alleluia!!

Vin

We are never restricted in God's love....

The deaf may not hear , but they hear Jesus saying how much He loves them everyday , every second..

The blind may not see , but they see Jesus , waving to them with a gentle smile , brightening up their world of darkness..

The mute may not speak , but they cry out in their Spirit : " Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty , Who is , Who was , and is to come!!! "

The lame may not run , but their Spirit runs forever , forever towards God's embrace..

The handicapped may be incomplete in this world , but Jesus makes them whole in God's Kingdom..

The mentally unsound may not think normally , but Jesus gives them the greatest wisdom..

The weak may be bullied by others , but God gave them power to rule in His Kingdom..

You may be a loser in the eyes of people , but in God's eyes you are more than a conqueror!

Rejoice! For there is/are no strings attached in God's love. He loves all of us unconditionally. You may be a rotten sinner , or a handicap , but little did you know that God loves you all the more. Always remember , it is in our weakness whereby God's strength in us is made perfect! We can never do things on our own strength , but if we rely on God , nothing in this world could bound or restrict us , walls will crumble! Chains will break! Darkness will fade! For God's love for us is infinite.....

Vin

Hey guys. I am really really blessed by God to have such an awesome God sis! :D And i really love the present , thanks Cheryl! x]] Haiz i feel so bad.... only gave her a christmas card :(((

The box (: So nice.



The casing.Image of an angel.Cooool x]


Finally , the Rosary inside!!


So nice of my God sis right? Hahaha. Yup yup. Nowadays i keep praying to God , it's as if God is reminding me to intercede to Mother Mary too! HAHA. Praise and thank God! And my God sis too!! :DDD


Vin

Just a humble message to those willing to hear...

Living in the real life is tough. Temptations and all sorts of heathen(worldy) sins corrupt us. But after all, we are human. The human nature in us made us sin , greed , hate , condemn, do immoral things.... etc. We are all empty shells , and this human nature of ours will eventually lead us to destruction.

But be happy brothers and sisters! The salvation to this problem is within you. Yes , within you. The Faith in the Lord Jesus , the Living God.The Holy Spirit sent by Him is our salvation. Human nature would eventually lead to Death , but if one lives in union with the Lord (doing things in His name to show love , and glorify Him), the Spirit will guide the person to Life. Life renewed by the Lord , free from all sins and bondage. A life without worries , a life filled with true happiness , a life without having to put on a fake mask , and the peace which no one and nothing else could provide.

Do you feel empty sometimes? Like you have thirst for something , a thirst you tried so hard to quench.And i don't mean the kind of thirst like the thirst for water. You listen to music , played games , hang out with friends. But the thirst doesn't go away.The thing you are finding is love. You may find love from your boyfriends/girlfriends , but somehow it just does not satisfy you. The answer is God , fountain of life , fountain of love. No one loves you more than God does , and His love is unconditional.It doesn't matter if you are a sinner. We all are. But God would really like to see us repent , and ask Him for forgiveness. His love is everywhere. Believe the Lord , for He says that everyone , even a simple act of opening the door for someone is love , and God shows His love through people like your parents , your friends , your siblings etc.


Take a step back and look. This world is utterly corrupted. Music bands and movies all promoting obscene and unholy things. Movies such as R21 movies promotes immorality , death metal musics and emo musics lead people and youths more into depression , or suicide even. What is this world coming to? Everyone puts on a mask. Why? To show that they are strong? That they are cool? They are so so mistaken. So what if you are stronger than the others? So what after you bullied them? If you truly gain satisfaction from doing this , then you are truly perverted.

And look , the world now boasts sin instead of acheivements!!! People would rather be proud of "Hey look , i've scared that guy. So noob right?" rather than "Hey! I helped an old lady to cross the road today!" Why? Cause they want to "save face" . They want to be "cool" , and believe the Lord , that is what human nature is like. They follow the world , enjoy worldy merry , indulge in things they think that are "cool". Little do they know that these will eventually destroy them , and humanity itself.

Sometimes , don't you feel like there is a sense of justice rushing up to you when u see someone being maligned for things that he did not commit? Don't you feel guilty when you've said a lie?Don't you feel bad when you shouted at your parents? These , my brothers and sisters , is the Holy Spirit, the good conscience within you , talking to you , speaking to you. It tells you what is right and what is wrong. But most people will just ignore it. They do what is wrong when they know it. They dare not expose themselves to the world , to show to the world that they have love in them. They fear the judgement of people. They are afraid that people will laugh at them , make fun of them.But fear not , for only God could truly pass judgement on us. When a passerby looks at you and make fun of you , just accept it , and walked away. That person is not going to be with you for the rest of your life. But God is! Fear God , not them.

By letting the Spirit to guide you my brothers and sisters , you will definitely lead a much much better life than you did before. Look beyond the reality of this world , for there is something far greater. To love , to serve , to do good. If everyone does this , wouldn't the world become a better place to live in? Everyone would serve and love people without their masks on , for they allow the Holy Spirit in them to guide them , to lead them. In the Bible , it says :"Now the Lord is the Spirit , and wherever the Spirit of The Lord is , there is Freedom"

Trust in God people , trust that good voice within you. Living amongst the heathen merry could only bring you a short while of freedom , but living in the Spirit frees you forever! I am a witness , a witness of the Lord , and here i am spreading the word for i truly changed! Life will definitely be much better , and you will truly experience the real freedom our Lord has promised us.

I hope through this message , i've at least inspired a few to do good and serve. I hereby make a stand that whatever i've said here is not for my own glory , but for God. I am just a candle who has been lighted by his love , and now trying to spread the flame of the Spirit... Let's strive to light up the world in God's love , as the world continues to sink in darkness. Praise and thank God!


Vin

Happy are those ...

Who love , for they have God in them
Who serve , for they glorify God in their actions
Who endure , for they share the same sufferings of the Lord
Who resisted temptations , for God have given them the shield called "Faith"
Who were judged by others , for they know that they could only be judged by God Himself
Who were called "Crazy" while glorifying God , for they know that God does not see them as crazy
Who hope , for they believed in the Living God Jesus Christ
Who have thrown away pride and ego , for they know that these are obstacles between them and God
Who are innocent , for they do not share the heathen merry but instead , in God's joy
Who honour their parents , for they honour God in the same way
Who tells the truth , for they have the Holy Spirit in them
Who confessed their sins and repent , for they have reconciled in God's love
Who do not speak vulgarities , for they speak in languages that glorify God
Who believe God , for they have gained salvation
Who felt God's touch , for their lives will be forever changed

Most importantly ,happy are those who have God in their hearts.....for they have everything they will ever need.


By Vin

Day 4




The last day of the awesome YISS camp. That day we had a very special speaker , can't remember his name (sorry) but he is humorous! He prayed over people who still can't speak in tongues , and all the rest who can prayed in tongues for them. After that , few by few were able to speak in tongues. Praise and thank God!!! Everyone can speak in tongues , but if you deny the Holy Spirit or do not have the Faith and Love , the tongue you speak in is just gibberish.St Paul said something like that also in the letter to the Corinthians.

After that the speaker said something about our calling. Life is like a race , but christian life is like a relay. Saints and disciples of Lord Jesus had ran the race , and now is our turn. It is our choice whether to take the baton or not.
The speaker then ask , those who want to take the baton stand up and go to the front of the room.

Then inside me , i just have this super strong urge to go to the front and take the baton and lead a new life. There is this voice in me asking to go for it , overcome my fears and just have a leap of faith. So i went for it , i went to the front and the rest who gathered at the front prayed. I prayed in tongues as the Holy Spirit outpours upon us again. I am not sure but , i saw a vision. A vision of many candles , different in size and shape , in all sorts of patterns. The flames lit up one by one. I prayed to God in tongues , that everyone would spread the fire , and light up the world in God's love. And mankind shall be saved.

I also prayed for people like Cheryl , Esther and the people in the room. I prayed that my prayers would reach God , and God would reach them. I also prayed for more to people to experience the Father's love , so that more people would laugh with genuine happiness. I then hear laughter across the room as the Holy Spirit does his work. I heard Moses laughing very loudly! Hahaha. It's as though their laughters are communicating with one another. I am not sure , for i closed my eyes. But deep in my heart , i longed for everyone to smile and laugh in God's embrace. How beautiful will the world truly be!

After this session , we had the concluding mass. We received the prayer of discipleship , and i am not sure what the process is called , but we ate salt. The saltly taste in our mouths , to remind us of our mission as Christians. I remembered something John ( not sure is John the Baptist or St john ) said. Something about what is salt when salt has lost it's saltiness? How true. Are we going to let this faith last? Or just be Christians in name? I've chosen to strenghten my current faith , and pick up the baton.

I've taken the baton and started running in faith and love ,in God's track. What about you? (:



Vin

• Day 3
  
  
  
  
  
  That night was the night of the outpouring of the Holy Spirit , and the Gifts he bestowed upon us. Oh and i forgot to mention that the theme for Day 2 was : Jesus , The Son our Saviour. So the theme for the third day is about the Holy Spirit , the helper sent to us by Jesus our Lord.
  
  But before i begin , that afternoon we had a little activity which helped us to learn more about the Holy Spirit and its gifts. We moved around in respective groups , at the hall area and went to different stations , where the different gifts were explained. So the 3 basic groups of the gifts are : The Gifts of Word , The Gifts Of Revelation , and The Gifts Of Power.
  
  They are all split into 9 charismatic gifts all together , with 3 in each group. (There are still other gifts too , other than these 9. )
  
  The Gift Of Word
• Gift of tongues to speak to God , to pray over for others in a personal language whereby only God would understand.

• Gift of tongues to speak what God has told you by the power of the Holy Spirit , and say it out in a foreign language.

• Gift of interpretation of tongues , which is also known sometimes as prophecy.This is very important as what would the use of tongues when it only benefits you and me? As St Paul has said in the Bible , it is much more important to spread the word of God to the Church.Therefore this gift is to interpret the meaning of another's tongue , and then say it to the whole Church.

• The Gifts Of Revelation

• The Gift of Knowledge. The ability to gain sudden knowledge of something which is out of our human capablilities , like seen things we've never seen before , hear sounds we've never heard before. The sudden spiritual knowledge bestowed by the Holy Spirit.
• The Gift of Wisdom. The ability where the Holy Spirit guides you , to understand the mysteries of God. The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Truth , as Lord Jesus has proclaimed in (John 16:13) "When the Holy Spirit, who is the truth , comes , he shall guide you all into truth..."

• The Gift of Discernment Of Spirits. This is the ability bestowed by the Holy Spirit within us to know whether a Spirit is good , or bad , in the surroundings or in a person.
• The Gifts Of Power

• The Gift of Faith. The Holy Spirit bestows upon a person a great amount of Faith , such that doubts of the Lord and God never exists.

• The Gift of Healing. The Holy Spirit grants a person to have healing abilities. But remember , the person who is healing is only a vessel for God , ultimately it is God our Father who is healing the other person , channeling through the chosen one.

• The Gift of Miracles. The ability to create miracles in the name of God. As the same , this and all gifts are ultimately used to glorify God.

Yup basically that's all about the gifts. On that night , we were being prayed over as the Holy Spirit was being outpoured upon us. I was being prayed over by John this time also , and he asked me what gifts would I desire. I said that i would like to have the gift of tongues. Actually before that , during my quiet time with God , i told Father that whatever gifts He would give me , i'll accept it with great humility, using these gifts i have to help others. And i also prayed that I'll be focus on desiring God Himself , rather than the gifts , for what could be greater than the Giver of gifts Himself?

Okay back to the main part , i said i wanted to receive the gift of tongues. John then told me to praise God and said "Alleluia". I opened up and praised God loudly and with faith. As i said "Alleluia" , John told me to say it faster. This was a little bit of problem for me , as my tongue isn't that flexible and the "le" and "lu" syllabus were difficult for me to pronounce - _ -

However I was suddenly reminded of what I've prayed to God earlier : To seek Him and not the gifts. So i let go my focus on the pronounciation , and prayed to the Holy Spirit that he would guide me , as i pour out my love in my prayers. Soon i find that as i focused on God , my tongue starts to sort of curled , and my "Alleluia" turned into a sort of unclear mumbling. Then i continued to pray in faith , and soon i realise i should just pour out the sounds in my head. What seems to be a foreign language sound began to come out of my mouth (it sounds Arabic o.o ). John then congratulated me , that I've received the gift of tongues. I was so surprised , i opened my eyes to look at him , although i wasn't suppose to.

So i sat down , and continued to pray for the rest whom havent received the gifts. I prayed for Nicholas in my new tongue for he too , really desired the gift of tongues. I later found out my tongues is a mature tongue , where there are a few syllabus in it , and it forms a shape of a normal phrase in a foreign language. Cheryl , my God sis , received the baby tongues, whereby the syllabus contained "lalalalala" . With more practice , i am sure she'll be able to receive the mature tongue! Jia you Cheryl! :D

That's all for Day 3 , praise and thank God for everything that night , and my new gift to pray over for others in tongue. You see brothers and sisters , I am not a baptised Catholic. So if a rotten sinner like me can receive God's love , you can too! It doesn't matter if you are baptised or not , it is the Faith and Love within you that matters! :D

Vin

Day 2



We had 'The reconciliation of the Sacred Sacrament' and 'Healing' session that night.
Before we received healing and be liberated , we need to face our sins.We must face the truth before we can truly repent. So on that night, we had confession.As I am not a baptised Catholic yet , i was extremely nervous on how the confession would go.When it was my turn , i walked to the priest with a confidence in confessing all my sins and be renewed , for i remembered the phrase "Look not on our sins , but on the Faith of your Church." And according to St Paul , he said something like God would not keep accounts of our sins , but rather He want us to repent and turn to Him
instead.
However when it was my turn , the father told me that since I am a non baptised Catholic yet ,I am not bound by sins.So he prayed for me , and i left , feeling a tad disappointed. However when i went back up to the session room , I just sat down and confessed all my sins to Jesus. I lifted them up and prayed for forgiveness , so that i would be liberated of these chains.
After that , it was the Healing session. After the reconciliation , we need to be filled up by God's Love and touch.Everyone was being prayed over by facils. When it was my turn , i was being prayed over by John. He asked me what i would like to be prayed over for.I told him , and he asked me if I believed in Jesus. I firmly said "Yes!" After that , i could feel a strong force on my head. My whole body felt light and numb , and i fall to the ground ( rested in the spirit). I felt this intensity within me.. my eyelid kept twitching on its own , and my eyes could not open. The Holy Spirit is working. I saw an outline of Jesus , our dearest Lord praying over me , as i lie down. I began to keep praising him as i lay on the floor.
After that i felt truly liberated!!! I felt Jesus's love and touch!! Nothing could express my emotions , and i just kept praising God. Alleluia!! Haha. I felt this peace ,that i've never ever felt before. I feel changed , liberated , empowered! Praise and thank God!!
After that , it's lights out time , and thankfully it's not so cold that night. Praise and thank God!( for day 2 also x] ) HAHAHA!



Vin

Hi guys. I am back from 4 days of YISS (Youth in the spirit seminar)camp at the CSC (Catholic Spirituality Centre ), organised by Amplify ministry. :D

Many of you guys may wonder: "What is this YISS about?" YISS is a seminar which purpose is to reach out to youths all over Singapore , to experience the amazing and indescribable love of God, our Creator , as well as to forge a deeper relationship with Him.The theme for this year's YISS (the 20th YISS) is "Liberation".

Day 1



So me and Nick decided to meet each other first , before going to CSC. We decided to meet at Hougang Mac.He was a little late , so i had breakfast first, and then set off with him to CSC , feeling excited as we were anticipating what we would be doing there. So with our heavy baggages ; literally and metaphorically , we walked with heavy footsteps to the gates of CSC,with our regrets , our sins ,our unforgiveness, our shames , and our hurt.
However , when we reached there , we were overwhelmed with welcomes from the facilitators at the entrance ;one of which is my group's facil , Joseph. Praise God! I felt so warm by their welcomings , i was not used to it.We registered at the hall area at the first floor , and 'checked' in into our dorm.We were very nervous , and we saw many other participants.We didn't talk much to the rest at first , but we made a new friend there , Gabriel.He was older than us by quite a lot , and praise God , for he was the first friend we made there.
After that , we went up to the session room for icebreakers and introduction. The icebreaking session really helped me a lot , as even before the camp proceeds , i felt liberated a little of my anxiety. Praise God! Hahaha.After that we had Praise and Worship sessions , and went to meet my group and lunch.My group was St. Francis of Assisi a.k.a SFA , and Nick's group is St.Ignatius of something (pardon me for forgetting =x)So we separated into our respective groups.
I met my groupmates , and initially , i felt really alienated ,as there was no one i knew in my group. I was worried , really worried that i could not open up to them. But in the end , i decided to let God do His thing , to just lead me wherever He wants me to go , to meet, to feel. My group consisted of Joseph (facil) , Antonia (Facil) , Rowena , Benjamin , Cheryl ,Moses , Esther and Beverly.All of them i tell you , these 8 very special people God has lead me to meet , had journeyed with me throughout these 4 days of life-changing experience, going through thick and thin together as we formed the almost instant bond. Praise God!
Then we had a speaker's session whereby inspiring people whom experienced God's love spread the message with their amazing tesimonials about the MOST amazing Father.(hahaha , so much 'amazing' things are going on in YISS!! x] )After that , we had our first sharing session.It is through this session we get to know each other better , and it is the first event which I've overcome myself.I keep hearing a voice in my head asking me to just share with everyone , no matter how shameful it may be as it may benefit the people there.It's as if God wanted me to let go of everything , like if i want to be set free , i must first face the truth. So i did , and i enjoyed the sharing session as even though we have different backgrounds , we are all here for the same purpose : To experience God.
I think from here , i'll just post all the higlights as there is really going to be a lot to post. After that we had dinner , oh ya and the girls there are like eating very little. Must eat more! Being slim is one thing , but being healthy is what God really wants you to be. Hahaha. Ya , i kinda forgotten if Mass is before or after , but ya Mass was great , and the first day's theme was something like "God , the Father."
Yup , then went to sleep after that , it was like super doooooooper cold. Freezing even under my jeans and blanket.The next day my nose is like running with mucus...Ew.. okay. I'll end here for today. (: Praise God for day 1!! woohooo!

Vin

Guys This Video Is Super inspiring.

God , Evian and Me

In company the child rejoice , laughter and happiness fulfills him

Loneliness never finds him , despite being the only son

For the child do not have friends as such.

Sadness to the child , is but temporary

There is nothing , which could hurt him much.

But under the innocence , grows a shadow

The shadow which feeds on his happiness , and grows with the innocence

Never revealing itself to the child ,

the shadow named 'Evian' hides within his oblivion.

The child grows up , into a boy

Still as innocent , the shadow grows.

But a family broken , the boy soon learns

He must be fierce , to deter all

The shadow faded a tiny bit.

Like the mist , the fog , and the vapour.

He is able to see things clearer, but still conceived.

To protect his mother , he vow to thee

"I'll show them what i'm made of ,

If anyone tries to hurt her again!"

The vehemence in him propagated , by his steel resolve.

And so the boy walks on , with a heavy task on his back.

As the boy grows into a young man , his path dimmers

And the blue sky turned into an evil sanguine.

He lost love , he felt pain , and suffered betrayal.

An addition to his task were the scars he received on his back.

The young man is badly messed up , but he still has to go on.

At this time , Evian revealed itself to the young man.

Evian is what the young man is , and the young man is Evian itself.

Evian explains reality to the young man ,

Exposing the pains , lies, sins of the world.

The young man struggles on...

The young man is lonely , but yet for now , loneliness is his only friend.

He finally found Evian in him , but lost Trust as a result.

He no longer have a shadow , as he is the shadow himself.

But just as darkness was about to consume him ,

A hand so powerful dragged him out.

The quiescent background suddenly burst into life again.

The young man heard a voice ,

"My child you are My legacy. Do not worry , i will not forsake you. "

That voice so warm and familiar , at the same time so powerful...

It struck deep into the young man , as the Light pierces the sanguine skies , down onto him.

He looked up , and found home.

God is there , smiling to him.

The Evian in the young man is now an attribute of him ,

no longer a negativity.

He realises no matter what , no evil nor darkness around him

could reach him , as much as God could.

So he followed the Light , and continued his winding journey.....

The young man is Me , and being Naive(Evian) i guess , is forever a part of me. What matters most is , my eyes are fixed onto God... and all shall be fine..God does not mind us , who are messed up , but very often it is us , who shun away from God. Let us not turn away from God , as He will never turn us away.

The End.

By ViN.

HIIII!!.... Yeah i am blogging yet once again. Just came back from Lan , with Zhongping , Samuel Quah , Marquez and Stanleeeeeey (Zong). Haha , played pool also. haiz so sian , today totally no form nor luck , kena owned in Cs and dota , and lost touch in pool. Everytime the ball was about to go in the hole , it just wouldn't.(wtf) -.- Haaahs , then after that went home.

Oh ya , went job hunting again with Zong and Nick yesterday , was out to a job agency called "Kelly Services" (sounds wrong , but dun xiang wai wai -.-). But in the end , we do not have a resume done yet , and they requires one in order to find the type of job we need. So we went off to Plaza Sing , in hope of finding a part time job sucessfully there. But , several shops are already out of vacancy , so we had no choice but to search again tomorrow, which is thursday lol. Hopefully got vacancy la... (and with lots of chio colleauges ^^ V ...... jkjk.)

And i am going to create a blog for SimPLy™ (Nick ,zong and me) soon! wahahahas , and will link everyone soon x] Haha and check out this cute thingy i found while we're job hunting. Saw it along the way inside a MRT underpass. It is found on the ceiling .Enough said , I'll let the picture do the talking , wahahahaahs :P

I am not a fool , I can tell. Just don't want to see her sad. Even if it means becoming your enemy.

ViN

Hey , lol changed my blogsong to a 'trance' song o.o Hmm i really dislike techno and trance , but well , this song somehow got me , HAHA. It's dam addicting sia.. been stuck to my head a.k.a 'having earworms' bout that song. Love the piano at the start xD lols random. okay bye for now~

ViN

Hey guys! i am back muhahahaahah!! i am alright now. Got over it already. Heh. Haizzz
so bored noww.. Even finding a job is soo ZzzZZz... Hmm. Anyways i wanna intro a very cool and interesting anime! It's Kuroshitsuji , A.K.A "The Black Butler". Freakin cool anime , though its theme is a little gothic and dark though , not suitable for kids /:

Hah , hmmm.. heh... so bored so bored so bored... T.T hurhur~ Okays nothing to say le , ciao...

"After all , i'm one akuma of a butler." (:

ViN

WARNING : Emotional post ahead. Those who does not have the mood to see please avoid all these for your own sake. It's gonna get heavy. /:



It sure hurts a lot when she meant the world to you , while you meant crap to her. I feel like crap , indeed , right here right now. I am hurt again , deeply and badly. I prepared myself for this to come , but i did'nt know it would be this painful. I thought i've learnt to let go , and i wish i had. I wanna move on , someone please help me, i dun wanna get stuck in this pain forever.

Someone decapitate my head so that i'll not think of her anymore,
pluck out my eyes so that i will not see her photos anymore,
erase my mouth so that i will not speak of her anymore,
chop off my hands so that i will not go to her blog anymore,
chop off my legs so that i will not go to her anymore...
And stab my heart so that i'll not love her anymore...........

ARGH!!! Its like those permanent marker stains , where you wish you can wash it off.. but it is either stuck there , or have left an ugly scar. I really hate this..
my eyes are so swollen i dare not go out anymore , my nose so blocked i can't breathe anymore. I'll just fall back into the silence till i am healed again.. Waiting for the world to forget me..


SoLO

Hi everyone... SingOut 2008 ended last night. A.K.A the last SingOut.. I feel weird. I feel like i did not do much yesterday , like i sort of dao everyone. I don't know why , yesterday didnt turn out to be what i expected. So much for being the ex-vice chairman of HIHS choir , i didnt even went to go talk with my juniors nor teacher. Haiz so fucked up sia.. and it is the LAST SingOut. ARGH. And i screwed up yesterday. Big time. I saw her , but i did not even went to talk to her , neither did i take photos with her. Dont know whats wrong with me.. i just hyperventilated yesterday , and my mind was in a blank. Before i knew what was going on... it all ended. No more waiting for me , cause this is the last time. No more seeing her.. No more thinking.....


ViN

Yoz guys , it's been a while since i blogged in this currently semi-forsaken blog. lol. Was really busy during the period around prom. Kept shopping and shopping AND shopping..... and it went on for quite a while , till my legs are accordingly punished.Gonna post some prom pics , dont have the rest yet cuz the guy who was supposed to send me the rest of the pics is taking his own freaking ^#%@& sweet time (as usual) , procrastinating like there's no tomorrow , next week nor next year nor.....wadever.







This few days also went job hunting... went to apply part time job in many places in vivo.. like Toy R' Us , New Urban male , Esprit , blah blah blah... now waiting for call , if not i have to search for more jobs..

Anyway i am down with flu now -.- so i dont think i will be finding job tomorrow... perhaps till when i'm feeling better.So weak now....

ViN

This is why i love cats. Cutest moments at around the end of video. Enjoy! ;DD


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Hero of a different kind...


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Hello... Ouchhhh today shoulder dam pain. Cuz in the morning i think i injured it by squeezing my pillow too tightly. -.- #%@^%&$&*

Today rained heavily in the morning , then my fan is directly blasting at me... then somehow in my subconcious , i didnt reach for my blanket. I just keep squeezing my stupid pillow. Then no matter hw i squeeze , still so freaking cold. Then i woke up. OUCH. Shoulder pain. T.T ZZZZZZ

Anyways i dreamt that i was the guy in the video again..but this time , i went to the hospital.. Instead of the doctors examining me , i remember it was Hojo , and he infused something hot in my chest. (not sure if it was chaos...) I remember it was freaking painful and hot.. like when i had my lung problem.. it's just like a re-enactment of the scene.. ARGH anyways got woken up by that shoulder pain thingy. -.-

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ViN

Helllooooo~ Today is a very shag day , but quite fun haha. Today woke up at 1 plus pm , cuz ytd sleep very late , at arnd 1 plus am. LOL. Then zong called me , so i woke up , and went to meet him at compass point. Then reach there le , went to MOS burger for lunch , after that we headed off to bugis.

Went to go look around for our prom wear and stuffs , rackey rackey abit. Then we comb almost the whole of Parco shopping mall , then i finally found one shop taht has male formal suits for sale. So i went in to try a few clothes. Then there is this girl/woman , the shop attendant , she intro-ed to me a few clothes , including a white long sleeve and a black long sleeve one. Then i went to the changing room to test. Something anxiety invoking happened. I havent finish buttoning the black clothe , then the attendant opened the room's curtain le. I was like OMG.Then she helped me button up the remaining buttons. Walao eh... dam nervous. First time in my whole life a stranger is so close to me , and seen my abs.. just like that. And my first time a woman / girl older than me being so near me.

Then after taht i went to change my pants.. this time i very cautious liao , the attendant ask me if the pants is too big anot ; at that time , i knew she is gonna come in , so i told her i haven wear finish. -.-

If only she is more chio then i would have enjoyed the moment when she helped me button the shirt... HAHA jkjk , i am not a perv.Btw the attendant's perfume dam nice smell , as in different from the typical ones. Anyways the black shirt is really super fitting and nice ( i've finally found out the colour that suits me), so i bought it. Then after bugis , zong and i went to little india to shop awhile , then i bought kachang puteh ( or wadever it is). 1 dollar only , and it so nostalgic to be eating this traditional snack. haha , then went to orchard later. We combed a lot of shopping centres , walked until my leg suan T.T

After which , we went to Plaza sing for dinner (wah , now i realise i went to a lot of fking places today...) , then met Valerie Faith and her bf there. haha , after that went home.



ViN

I feel like my picture right now. Dam ______ up.Cannot get to sleep these few days.
Mind kept thinking , and thinking , and thinking.....That's the price to pay for having a too active brain. ARGH! Turning grumpy due to my insomia or whatever.

Anyways today had SS O lvls. 2 topics which i studied came out as essay out of 3. Fortunately , before the exams , i have already calculated well enough. As long as i study four themes , anyone of which would 100% be included as a question in the essay. Heh , SS over le , but to me , it seems like the whole O lvls is over.. now left Pure Geog paper 1 and Science MCQ. Hmm... after - dinner desserts... subarashi.. :p
FREEDOM IS NEIGH!!!!

ViN

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I really love this song a lot. It is very heartwarming , and somehow motivated me o_O.. Uh okay , better stop crapping , enjoy the video (:


ViN

Hellos. Went to CSC yesterday with Nic and Zong , but Galvin din go cuz he went for chalet. On the way , we discovered something funny -.-

After that Nic went home , then me and Zong walked to Mac there. Saw Marcus studying , so we approached him. Zong went home first cuz he worried cnt catch last bus , since the time was already around 11.30pm. After that , i walked home with Marcus since he lives near me and he is gonna study at the void deck near ZhongPing's house.On the way , i discovered something SHOCKING from him =p LOL! (To marcus: I bet you know what i mean by this x] ) Then reached home , bathed then sleep.

ViN

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream.
It drives you crazy,
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in the frame,
But it couldn't save me.
How could we quit something we never even tried?
Well you still can't tell me why.

(chorus)
We built it up, to watch it fall,
Like we meant nothin' at all,
I gave and gave, the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, you stole my life,
Just to find what you're lookin' for,
But no matter how i try,
I can't hate you anymore.
I can't hate you anymore.

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry before
It drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way,
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

(chorus)
We built it up, to watch it fall,
Like we meant nothin' at all,
I gave and gave, the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, you stole my life,
Just to find what you're lookin' for,
But no matter how i try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight it slips right through you hands.
Will I ever understand?

(chorus)
We built it up, to watch it fall,
Like we meant nothin' at all,
I gave and gave, the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, you stole my life,
Just to find what you're lookin' for,
But no matter how i try,
I can't hate you anymore. (X2)

Hello... *yawns* zzz just woke up from sleep.... FUCKING CONSTRUCTION so blardy noisy
i close window le still so loud. Fuck sia , i really wanna go complain. Typical hor? =x Who ask them woke me up...i still need to rest before my O lvl physics leh.... ZZZ

Anyways... maybe i'll blog after my paper.. tata for now~


ViN

The wednesday 22th post has been fixed. Enjoy the videos~ x]

ViN

FUCK! ONEMANGA GOT NO DISGAEA MANGA!! ^@%$&@%&^&^
sorry , venting randomly. -.-

ViN

Yo! Had maths paper 1 today. Oh well , realised i did a lot of careless mistakes... gg.com.sg.

Anyways went to city hall today with Galvin , Wenqiang , Sheila , Aisha, Nic lee and Valerie Faith , for some job interview thingy. Just went to see see lor , incase i might need a part time job during the vacations. haha , but too bad the timetable hor , have to work on weekends. :( Life come first! dun wan after Os de no life-life still continue no life. LOL! So i quitted the interview upon knowing the working time slots.


The photo above shows the typical Galvin. Typical Singaporean lor , ppl take group photo he come and block me. LOL -.-


Top also show some awesome electric guitars i saw today. So cool sia their design. Got one is Gundam one , shaped after a weapon. ( Zaku Axe? o.O )

Another one is Doeraemon , xiao ding dang. So cute hahaah. Then my favourite one, the super cool transparent guitar!! Cool man. So gonna learn left hand electric guitar after Os. Okays thats all , bye bye (:


ViN

Yo , haha these 2 vids make me laugh like siao... Can really help to destress LOL.
Funny skits by Jin of the band Kat tun (Cartoon)


The first one:


Another one:



Enjoy! x]
ViN

Yoyoyo!! Haiz forgot to blog bout yesterday. Haha , was too tired..

Okays so anyway , yesterday had english O levels , and thank God , i survived the long hours....Paper 1 was okay , and fortunately i was able to relate with the topics. Paper 2 was quite easy , the compre was about Cats , so zhun , my favourite topic! LOL. First time in my life i wrote down two pieces of drafts for my summary. Wrote 146 words. Max is 150.

Oh ya , yesterday something fucking embarassing happened to me... like wtf man. Before the exams , the chief examinaer asked anyone if they had any un-allowed materials. Then i panic cuz i felt a piece of paper in my breast pocket. Then i was like "Oh shit , my english paper format... siao liao.." Then i quickly raised up my hand. ( Galvin say i raise up like very cool and calm like that -.- ... ) Then one examiner walked over to me. "Yes?" he said. Then i took the piece of "Paper" out of my pocket. "Huh?!" , the examiner replied. Then i looked at my hand. WTF!!!!!!!!!! WHY AM I HOLDING 2 PIECES OF 2 DOLLAR NOTES?! Then i quickly apologize to him -.-

Dam freaking embarassing la.. everyone near me was laughing -.-||| ZZzzzZz
Then i still remember the examiner also laughed. Then joked with me "You wan to bribe me ah? " LOL.

Okok... i feel lame posting this already... Off to my Geog-land....

ViN

Hello. Man , i am blogging at such a late time. Supposed to be asleep by now , since tomorrow's the O lvl english. The timing siao one. Paper one at 2.30 start , then afterwards second paper starts at 5 o'clock. Damn fked up right? English is supposedly the most important subject , and yet the timing is so disastrously unfavourable.Like how are we gonna do our best for paper 2 when it's so freaking late , and by then we are prolly half-zombies alrdy.

Oh well. Anyways today had Chem paper. Hmm , time was tight, so room for checking my answers is very little.The Chem paper is full of traps.Basic questions but yet at the same time , tricky. I think i've fallen into one or two traps.. haiz cnt get full marks liao. sianz. Quite confident to get A1 , but of course , nothing is for sure , besides i still havent take my physics yet... So.. gotta work harder!


Okays.. i guess i better go sleep le. Nites!


ViN

Maybe people like me arent cut out to be in love after all...I am an imcomplete person with lung problems. I cant do sports anymore..permanently.No one would wanna choose someone like me..There are much better fishes out in the ocean..I am only suitable to be a hermit crab..Maybe that's why i distance myself from people..Maybe that's why i am SoLO...


ViN

Hey nin gens (humans)! Never blog for quite a while le , cuz gotta be a good boy and study for O levels. Haha.

Anyway the Sec 5 faith Star awards was a success! Well , at least it was , in my eyes. Though SimPLy did not manage win 1st place for superband ( sorry , cuz i screwed up the verses...I know we can better..) but winning's not important. All that matters is that we had a freakin load of fun!

Oh, still have the 5 Faith arena . Haiz didnt prepare cuz i was helping Galvin with his Art introduction writing at Kovan mac. Haha , but no regrets , just hope my efforts would help Galvin. (:

Okay la , think i will end the post here, not cos of what , but my com like freakin tio virus again. Fuck!!!! Now like type every 5 words , screen would freeze awhile.
Zzz all my fault for playing with virus.. TwT

Anyways , i love 5 Faith!!!

SoLO

Fuck my blog is dead. LOLs!!

Okay anyway , gonna be extremely busy for these few days..Gonna piah the big Os.. ( dun anyhow think )

Sian sia ... now doing math tuition homework... siao liao la. confirm cnt finish... tuition teacher coming ltr in half and hour's time. And i still got a freaking maths paper 2 to complete... Haizzzzzz = =|||

And i hate it when my emotions hinder me. Irritating sia. Someone turn me into a robot plz , so that i wun feel like shit now. Okay back to homework , bye bye! ^0^v

DarK SoLO™

Heyo. Argh. Dunno why but nowadays very sian.. and quite emotional..maybe it's cause i am going to leave my class soon...

Swinging back the pendulum , i still remembered the time when i first came to sec 5Faith. I went to class with hatred and anger...I dont even wanna be there. I was different back then. There was so much darkness inside of me ( caused by my lung problem and some friendship betrayal shits) , that i eventually closed up on everyone..I even had this resolve of not making friends , and just get on with the O levels..The first day of school was terrible... i dont have any friends there at all .. and my friends are all at poly or JC , while i am stuck in a sec 5 class.. I feel so inferior , so sucky.

I was so reticent that , during recess , i will hide inside the toilet for the recess to be over...cuz i dun wanna communicate with anyone.. I even sent a sms to "her". Cuz she's probably the only one left for me to confide to..But i am just so stupid..i waited and waited for the sms..but it didnt come when i need it the most.. but i dont blame her at all , instead i blame myself. I shouldnt keep bothering other ppl , it's time to just stick to myself. I feel so bad whenever i made her feel guilty or whatever.So since , i am on my own..'

But through time.. despite my aloofness , i became less closed-up.. even without myself knowing. And soon , i am laughing together with my classmates.. I made new friends , and my perspective of them changed.. cuz we are all in this together.. we have a same purpose , and that is to pass our O lvls. I soon developed a bond with them.. like Nic , Dew , Zong, marcus, ming jing and Galv and lots lots more like Valerie and Jason...etc.
I never expect myself to become friends with them , and i can proudly say , I do not regret it at all..In fact , i feel even happier in 5 Faith then in 4 Diligence , probably cause only Kiat keng was there for me at that time , and i hate the pai kias in 4 dil. To the core. Like fuck off man , act nia.

Sec 5 peeps are WAY better than those half-assed bitches. ( woot feel so shiok saying this ). I really hope that i will be able to maintain this relationship with my brothers and friends in 5 Faith, even after many many years later..until the world ends. Too bad , time is the enemy... therefore we must cherish the bond we have now. To all sec 5 Faith classmates , please support the 5 Faith star awards , because we are one family ( i am not embarassed to say this. (: ) Even i , a guy who has only been with you guys for one year , is already so attached .... so guys
please support.. and cherish the time we have left together..

Galvin , dun worry , even if no one wanna come... I'll still be there. Definitely. (:

SoLO

Hello. Sorry for not blogging for such a long time.. recently fell ill. Got quite serious throat infection , think probably due to the over-straining of my voice. Had fever first , then sore throat.. Then got one time coughed out blood. Doctor says its normal cuz the throat wall dunno like very red. Then took antibiotics and stuff lor..

Haiz , now at home resting..So tired , bored and indescribably isolated...wanna go back to school soon!!! >.<

SoLO

Hello people (: Just came back from Raffles place , whereby "Amplify in the city" was held. WOOHOO! it was such a blast haha. For those of you who dont know , it is an event organised by Amplify ( catholic youth organisation ) to worship and praise God , by gathering youths from all over Singapore.

Went with Nick and Zong to raffles.We took the MRT there , and we thought we were going to be late. Then saw Valerie at the Raffles MRT station. After tt proceeded to the venue , which is like after several mazes in the underground tunnel -.-

Then reached the place le. OMG sia , that place is so freaking grand and stylo. The praise and worship session took place inside an auditorium.Sang lots of AWESOME worship songs , and me , zong and nick were freaking high tonite. haha. In between the worship , the emcee , Mr Leonard Koh , one of the leaders of Amplify sort of discussed about a chapter in the bible.

It is super duper meaningful. The chapter is about Lord Jesus going all the way to Samaria to find this samaritan woman , to cure her of her problems.( her inner secrets , shame and sins)

He also said something which struck a chord within me.Ever wondered why shows of super heroes are getting more and more popular? Shows like Ironman , Batman and stuff. Actually , deep within us , we want to be extraordinary people. Seen , heard , and recognised by the others. We want our lives to be so much more than what we think we can do , which are to a limited extent.We have this emptiness within us sometimes. The feeling of lost , despair and "emo". These are the things which haunted me for sooooo long.

Let me tell you a short stoy here. In the icy regions of the world , do you know how do Eskimos ( those living in igloos ) hunt for food? They take a knife , dipped the knife in a dead animal's blood , and dry it.The process is being repeated over and over and over again , until the knife is totally coated in dried blood. The Eskimo then place the knife on the ground (Ice) , with the blade facing up into the sky. A wolf would be attracted to the knife , due to its animal instinct. It will continue to lick the knife , and as it does so , its bloodlust increases. It then begins to lick even more , until gradually , the coating of dried blood is gone , and the real blade reveals.The wolf dont realise that , the blood that its licking , is acutally its own. Eventually , the wolf died.

This is very real in our lives. When we are in despair , we will indulge in other meaningless things to find satisfaction. But the story of Jesus finding the Samaritan woman shows tt God is the only way whereby your "thirst" can be fully quench. Other means of finding satisfaction will eventually lead you to even more thirst , and eventually , more broken up. This is the same concept depicted in the story of the Eskimo and the wolf.

I've learnt that we have to run TOWARDS God , NOT AWAY. We dont have to have the fear of being afraid that God would be angry , because He is forgiving and loving.it is our perception , that he is angry with our sins , that often turn us away from God , who wants us to approach him instead.

After all , God is our father , someone for us to seek forgiveness with. The fountain of life , the water that will truly quench our "thirst". (craving for the thing you want deep within oneself eg. love )

SoLO

Hey all. This is gonna be a long ranting post , so if you dun have the mood to hear me rant or vent , then please skip today's content.Haha see , i so considerate.Even ranting also got spoiler alert.LOL.Okay , here it begins.

I've been thinking for a long time , and i am seriously frustrated to the core about something. Justice , is it really there in this world? Why do all the lame and show-off people getting fame and recognition , but not the truly talented ones who deserved it?

The same goes for credit.I will speak the truth here. I fucking hate the SLB.Flame me all you want.Cuz u all do not know the fucking fact that goes around.I came back to the SLB , thinking with enthusiasm that i will be able to serve and work with pride in the council.But i was disappointed.I faced rejection in many ways. I didnt get to go to any Leadership camps.I was "advised" not to cuz of my pathetic body.

No one approached me in the SLB to talk to me.Only my juniors , Amily , Ming teck, Ying yan and my few classmates in SLB wud say hi and talk to me for abit. I am TOTALLY invisible in the SLB. During the Annual General Meeting , duties were given out to the councillors. I didnt even get ONE duty. If you think that they are doing so cuz i am sec 5 and i need to concentrate on my Os , then why the hell they give it to other sec 5 SLs but not me? Cuz of my lung problem? Cuz they think i cant do it?

FUCK. If i didnt want to do duty , i wouldnt even be fucking back in the SLB. What else do i wear the tie for? To let it get dusty? yeah , now perhaps. I find no sense of belonging anymore.People are not doing their duty well , and in the hall duty , i am the only one to fucking pick up rubbish and used tissue while other councillors use 'EYE POWER'. Fantastic. The ex-cos? even more pro. Level 2 'EYE POWER'. 'MOUTH POWER' also. Only talk cock. Do i EVER see them in action? Hell NO.

If you wanna fucking command ppl and gain their respect , then u better show a good example.But too bad u dont seem so to me. So u fucking dun get any respect from me. I am disappointed.I shall resign as a councillor , within the core of my being. For the tie, i will just wear it as a fashion statement until i get my freaking testimonial before i burn/disintegrate/melt/ it.

So much for "There is no "I" in team". The irony. "I" am really not in their team. Solo i go then.

As for love life , it is the same case. I will never be found , never seen nor heard. Yet i cant stop myself from falling in love.I am really disgusted bout the reality of this world , and the bunch of show-offs scums. I would really like to protect "her" from these bastards , but i cant. Its NOT within the locus of my control.What even fucking right do i have to protect her? I am just a guy with freaking lung problems unable to do anything.And these ppl are just gonna take her away from me. I can only watch , and pain is inevitable.

But anyways, i am still gonna be myself , and no one more. Cuz i believe in my values , even if i have lost , i wont be as bastard as them. At least...


SoLO

ok , tt stupid ranting post aside , i forget to tok about the class reunion of 4 diligence07. LOl psps ah.. We had steamboat at bugis , then it is dam heartwarming to see all my ex-classmates back haha.Hope still got more outings like this sia xD.

Ok the pic above is dam random lor LOL . Kiat Keng , me(middle) , and Jia Le posing like crazy ppl for the camera LOL. Look weird sia hahaha. Anyway anyone got more photos send me pls tyty!! ^^


SoLO

Yo...Dammit. Shitty things keep happening to me. For some reason , when i tried to
feel happy or motivated , the next day will always get me. So many things are really hurtin me badly..and they keep flooding in.. I am drowning under all these... Can something make me happy? For once? At LEAST???

Ppl keep saying i sound emo , look emo...wadever. But no one will understand how much i am going through.. No one , except God..I tried countless times to stand up after every fall , putting on a smile , just to hide my feelings..It's so stupid. Why
am i trying so hard , when eventually , everything goes down the drain?

Maybe i should be apathetic , so that i would not hurt so much.Maybe i should care less.. Why do i always have so much freaking hope when it is gonna hurt so much more? I always belived , that MAYBE something good will turn out in the end..guess i am just too naive , too stupid..

Hello... Today had Teacher's day celebration plus Cross country at punggol park.Then the weather was like drizzling a little , due to the monsoon season ( pure geog knowledge, mai siao siao hor! =x). So the mood kinda sianz liao..Then when it came to my turn to run , i was actually at the front row, where everyone was preparing to start running.Then i walked to the back.No point being in the front when i cant run at all..Then after that slowly walked.Then saw dew, then paced with him. Along the way i took a few pictures of the scenery outside the perimeter of punggol park , but i also took 2 pictures before the race in punggol park too , which i will post them on the next post , along with an update of my drawings ( sorry , still using same style)

I just felt that the idea of fusing cross country AND teacher's day celebration is a little ironic , cuz if you wanna make the teachers happy , then why the hell did you make them scream at you for not settling down fast?
In the end , they get angry instead.

Yup , thats all. What a day to amplify my incapablility. :(

SoLO

How can i forget my crew? haha. We are SimPLy™ 3 crazy crackpots. Brotherz till the end.

Sim + Poh + Lee = SimPLy™ !


SoLO

Oh ya , gonna post some pics which i took while i roamed around Buangkok. Pictures of
some sceneries which i took , are quite lame , so pardon me for that =x

Yo guys. I am back with more drawings lol . haha this time i focused on drawing simple characters , such as a simple short hairstyle. Will work on long hairstyle and male characters when i am more prepared. (:

Omg the blog thingy below is quite fking accurate O_O

What Melvin Sim Wei Siang Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Hello.. hee today is such a boring day sia. Got back our prelim papers . Not well done , which is good. That means my plan is working. Wad's the plan? u think lor. its dam logical one.

Anyways , nowadays still feel very annoyed and emotional for dunno what fking reasons. Hmm.. something is wrong wif me? I got mood swing? wtf? no. Aiya dunno wad is it but it feels as if i am starting to get sick of everything alrdy.I just wanna
drown myself in music..Drown myself till i lose all these fking feelings.Until i turn into an emotionless zombie...

SoLO

Forget the wad day liao.....


Once upon a time , there was a young boy. Being young and naive , he was captivated by many things easily..and out of all these , love. One day , he heard rumors of love being kept at the peak of a high mountain. Being idiotically honest and innocent , he decided to find it for himself... On the way up the mountain , he tripped and fell many times. He got hurt over and over again. However , he did not allow the pain to stop him, he had faith in love.He was determined to find love.What a fool.

He tried again and again , with each step , he believed that he was getting closer..He wanted to experience love for himself , after listening to how great the feeling of love could be.He never gave up , and eventually he reached the top..But love was not there..He was disappointed.All he got when he reached the top were scars , bruises and pain.Why was he trying so hard to find love? It was just a rumor..there are many other things the boy could do..But he still chose to go through the hard way..

A few years past...The young boy has growned up into a fine young man.The wounds are healed , but the scars remain.. The young man remembered what he had went through..His faith in love has not died yet.This time, the stranger whom spreaded the rumor , decided to climb with him. The young man was assured this time , nothing could go wrong , since the stranger was with him.

Then , the naive young man had his second attempt at finding love. During the climb , the young man was struggling as he did in the past , but this time , the stranger supported him , and gave him words of encouragement. The young man was motivated ; his confidence was boosted tremendously. He was close to the peak , he grinned happily to himself. He could finally feel love. Just then , the stranger accidently missed his footing , and fell, dragging the young man along with him...The young man could not hold onto the weight of the stranger , and eventually lost grip...They both fell deep into the deep valley beneath them..The abyss of darkness..

As they say , "Touch the failure, taste the success". This was never true in this case..the young man never found love.. never, despite his pathetic attempts.

The stranger's name is called..... "Hope".



SoLO

8th day..

Yo. went to sch ytd to submit my chinese option form . Then met up with zong. We slacked at the space then saw so many wonderful painted benches. Haha dam nice man. Art class jiu shi art class. Hahaha. Hmm, then i began to experiment some manga drawing , while zong practiced his math . Then saw marcus and galvin , they also came to submit their option forms. After that went to kopitam to have lunch with them.

After lunch , me and zong decided to walk to compass point from hougang. hahah , yeah we WALKED. The weather is dam hot , but still decided to walk there , cause can exercise , plus we can free our minds while walking. Then we chatted , and decided to
have a short break at a kopitiam at seng kang before continuing. We grabbed a drink , and continued the journey.It feels so good to have a nice long stroll. The only irritating thing is the weather.

Then after that , we walked towards compass point along a pavement with open spaces across. We stopped halfway , and decided to sit down , cuz the scenery is dam calm , and the wind is dam shiok. Then we played music , and chatted. Then something made me extremely pissed off.

While we were sitting , a group of 3 boys , one about 17 - 20 years old while the others are still quite young , walked pass us. They were drinking bubble tea. Then dunno for what fucking reason, this boy shoot the pearl at me. Then i look at him , he somemore gave me a cheeky grin. Wtf sia , i really sibei dulan and was trying to control. Then the cb bangala teen say smth like "scared wad....stare stare stare.."
I almost snapped. Fortunately , i didnt. My values saved me in the nick of time (no pun intended , nick did not come with us =.=)

Then after that me and zong went to the library to cool down after the long walk. We discussed many interesting and personal stuff. We discussed about what will happen if i really went to beat that bangala up. I wouldnt want to imagine that , because when i go snap , i will seriously smash him , bash him , mash him and let him have it. I was worried about an overkill... what if i accidently killed him? And the consequences that comes after the fight. This made me hesitant , and moreover , my morals tell me to choose peace over violence. Unless zong kena beaten up , then i will beat that guy up to save my friend.

We also discussed about changing our personalitly. Being on the other side for so long, we didnt learn much about this world. Zong told me that , unlike me , he would like to get into trouble for once , into real life confrontation. Because he wanted to change , and fight his anxiety problems. Through the chat ,i came to know that he is somewhat like me. We are very introverted , and we want to change. Ususally when someone is being confronted by gang , they will be scared and stuff , but me and zong discussed about us dun give a heck to anything and just bash the other guy up. Maybe that feeling will change us. Not for the bad. I realise that fear is a must in someone's life , and it is not a shame to have it. Fear is the teacher of all things , it makes us think , and not do things foolishly. And when you overcome this fear , you get an incredible sense of satisfaction. This is what i wanted.There is so much to debate over morals vs. consequence. but IMO , morals are what that makes you alive , isnt it?

Conclusion : Getting into trouble is never a good thing.But for once in your lifetime , you need to get into one.Or else , you will never grow.That's how the world works , you dun search , you will never discover.

SoLO

The 6th day...


Happy Birthday to me!! lol. Haha thanks to all who wished me happy birthday. Very touched , cuz u all still remembered me lol. Hmm , my birthday wish is very simple. I just wish that everyone would stay healthy and happy , that's all. haha. Actually
i almost forget today is my birthday , until Espoire smsed me. Thx guys! ^^

SoLO

5th day..

Yo. haha going to post some of my drawings... pls give me comments , honest ones. Cuz i wanna improve!! tyty ^^

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yup thats all , pls comment and gimme advise thx!

SoLO